THE MIRACLE KITTEN

backgrounder:

we have lots of puskal here, we feed them, they sleep in the garage, we cant let them in the house coz the dogs hate them, one of them is stress, why the name? coz when i first saw her, she looked stressed out, as in pang comercial ng vitamins for adults ang dating....ang pangit talaga...then husky pa voice niya....of all the cats stress in the loyal one, she just stay in the garage unlike "tita" minsan nawawala

so to cut things short after gumanda si stress, may nagka gusto, lumandi, nabuntis

i still dont have a name for the kitten, kung boy ill name him stresso, kung girl maybe lucky.....just found out yesterday that their mom wasn't breastfeeding at all....so I manually feed them thru a dropper, but this morning 2 of the kittens died, i brought the kitten to the shop I'll just manually feed him every three hours, I hope he will survive...for now he's sleeping.....


update 5 pm:

im losing hope that he will be a miracle kitten, i dont have the proper tools, im just using a dropper....but i wont quit ill try my best but if in the end ill fail atleast i did my best....according to my research i may not be giving him enough milk....ill drop by at the vet clinic will look for feeding bottles kittens

update 1:20 am

just fed him, more or less mga 3ml ng bonna3, he's sleeping now, tomorrow ill buy a smaller dropper baka kasi its too big for his mouth kaay he feels irritated pag feeding time, i can hear him meowing....afk mode

update 2:40 am

i think he's improving.....i have to sleep now.....just finish reformatting the pc....hope this morning when i wake up he's still with me

update 9am

he looks ok.....still figting....we're both fighting!!!!

august 25. 11:00 hrs

he passed away, when i woke up this morning i already knew that its just a matter of hours, he's breathing was deep and slow......i kissed him to say goodbye.....but in a way im glad coz he wont suffer anymore....

to my kitten lucky.....goodbye....see you soon

REGRETS!!!!

regrets, why do people have them....is it in our nature to have regrets...I have lots of regrets in my life (who doesn't have?)....maybe if I studied harder then maybe I might have a better life, if I didn't transfer from one school to another then four years after I graduated from high school I'll be a professional na, then ten years after I'll be stable na, another ten years I have my own place na....etc etc...

but changing the past doesnt mean that the future will change in our favor, if ever I did good in my studies that doesnt mean that ill be more successful today, it doesnt mean that ill be happier, it doesnt follow.....I always say this to my friends, there are things in life how much you try, if it wont happen it will never happen, what is important you did your best...(Im good at that, mangaral....lol) that's what you call destiny.....maybe this is my destiny (trying to make myself feel good....lol) sabi nga nila make sure of your wishes it might just come true....all I ever wish (when I was still in my teen years) was to be happy, for someone to love me for what I am, coz sa barkada ko I was the only one who was lonely....so "destiny" gave it to me....happiness.....not financial...but emotional....and for that I am grateful...how I wish "destiny" would be more generous...but syempre hands down ako...if I have to pick only one, don nako sa emotional happiness

THE FILIPINO IS WORTH DYING FOR

FAMOUS WORDS FROM NINOY AQUINO, AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I STILL BELIEVE THAT HE DIDNT DIE IN VAIN, I THINK I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL WHEN IT HAPPENED, THERE WERE NEWS REPORTS THAT NINOY IS RETURNING HOME, UNTIL THERE WAS A FLASH REPORT REGARDING THE "ASSASSINATION" OF NINOY......WHEN I SAW THE CLIPS OF HIM AT THE TARMAC LYING FACE DOWN AND BEING BROUGHT TO THE VAN, I FELT SADNESS IN MY HEART, FELT ANGER....SUCH A BARBARIC ACT, WHEN THE WAKE WAS SHOWN ON TV IT GAVE ME CHILLS DOWN TO MY SPINE.....IT AWAKENED ME, THAT WE AS A PEOPLE SHOULD FIGHT FOR WHAT WE BELIEVE IS RIGHT AND JUST.....

PERSONALLY THAT IS WHAT NINOY GAVE ME, TO FIGHT FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IS RIGHT AND JUST...SABI NGA NG MGA PIPZ KO PAG DATING SA POLITICS PINAGLALABAN KO TALAGA WHAT I BELIEVE IS RIGHT

I JUST WISH ONE DAY ALL HIS DREAMS FOR THIS COUNTRY WILL COME TRUE

THANK YOU NINOY!!!!!

TRIBUTE TO NINOY SITE

THANK YOU......VEGAN PRINCE

THIS ENTRY IS SOMEWHAT A TRIBUTE TO THE PERSON WHO INSPIRED ME TO START MY OWN BLOG....AT FIRST I WAS HESITANT TO HAVE MY OWN BLOG.....FOR ME TO OPEN MYSELF TO THE WORLD...TO LET THEM KNOW HOW I FEEL INSIDE....BUT BECAUSE OF THIS BLOG I HAVE AN OUTLET, I CAN SAY WHATEVER I WANT...I CAN RELEASE ALL THE NEGATIVE VIBES I HAVE......I CAN SPEAK MY MIND.....I WAS NEVER A BLOG READER BUT WHEN I CAME ACROSS HIS BLOG....AND READ HIS ARTICLES ON ANIMAL RIGHTS WITH MATCHING PICS OF THAT CUTE HAMSTER....I WAS ADDICTED TO HIS BLOG....A DAY NEVER PASSES THAT I DONT READ HIS BLOG....ESPECIALLY HIS ARTICLES ON HIS DEPRESSION STRUCK ME....IF A PERSON LIKE HIM WHO HAS ACHIEVED SO MUCH (HE'S ONLY 23) CAN HAVE SOME FORM OF DEPRESSION THEN I MYSELF CAN TELL THE WORLD THAT I DO HAVE DEPRESSION ATTACKS......NOW THEY UNDERSTAND WHY THERE ARE TIMES THAT IM SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS....SABI NGA NILA "TINOTOPAK" NA NAMAN AKO....KAYA NGAYON, NASASAKYAN NA NILA AKO....

VEGAN PRINCE THANKS FOR INSPIRING ME TO HAVE THIS BLOG!!!!!

AS YOU CAN SEE PEOPLE EVEN THE URL IS A TRIBUTE TO HIM.....LOL

DEPRESSION!!!!

GOT MY DEPRESSION ATTACKS AGAIN YESTERDAY, IM REALLY LIKE THAT, WHAT TRIGGERS IT, I DONT KNOW.....IT WILL JUST HIT ME...SOMETIMES, IM A SHIT TO ALL WHO KNOWS ME...PETTY THINGS MAKES ME MAD...I JUST TELL THEM "TINOTOPAK AKO, SAKYAN MO NALANG"....PARANG WHEN IM HAVING MY ATTACK I LOVE TO HAVE SMALL QUARRELS WITH EVERYBODY I KNOW OR I DONT WANT THEM TO TALK TO ME....NAALALA KO TULOY DURING MY COLLEGE DAYS MY MOM INSISTED THAT WE SHOULD GO TO A PYSCHIATRIST BCOZ SHE TOLD MY FATHER THAT IM HAVING EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS THATS WHY IM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME ON MY STUDIES, WHAT SHE DIDNT KNOW, SHE WAS RIGHT IM HAVING EMOTIONAL/PSYCHOLOGICAL PROBLEMS....AND WHEN I WAS THERE TALKING TO THE SHRINK I REALLY LET MY SELF LOOSE....HE PRESCRIBED ME MEDICINES WHICH I DIDNT BUY, COZ I BELIEVE I DONT NEED IT....ITS MY BODY/MIND AND I CAN CONTROL IT WHEN I NEEDED TO...DEPRESSION IS A STATE OF MIND....DONT LET IT TAKE CONTROL OF YOU!!!!.....LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT....ACT AS IF IT IS JUST A PART OF A ROUTINE, THAT IT WILL PASS...


YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT REALLY CURES DEPRESSION?


SEX....AND A LOT MORE OF IT.....LOL


BUT FOR ME WHO DOESNT HAVE ONE (YET)...JUST LOOK AT THE PEOPLE WHO ARE LESS FORTUNATE THEN YOU'LL FEEL GOOD...KUMBAGA, COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS...

MY LIFE

HOW WOULD I RATE MY LIFE SO FAR? I CANT SAY THAT I HAD A VERY GOOD LIFE BUT I CANT ALSO SAY I HAD A BAD ONE....I LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME, I DONT MAKE PLANS....WHAT I KNOW IS THAT IM HAPPY.......I DONT HAVE THAT MUCH BUT STILL I HAVE ALMOST ALL THE THINGS THAT I WANT....WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FOR?

I HAVE A SMALL BUSINESS OF MY OWN, I HAVE DOGS (I CALL THEM KIDS) WHO LOVES ME AND I HAVE FOUND THAT SHINING STAR THAT IVE BEEN LONGING FOR SUCH A LONG, LONG TIME, THE STAR THAT GUIDES IN MY EVERY JOURNEY, IN EVERY STEP I MAKE, THAT SHINES SO BRIGHT WHENEVER I FIND MYSELF IN THE DARK

August 07, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (0)

WHY I WANNA STAY HERE?

JUST AWHILE AGO MY SIS ASKED ME, WHY DO I WANNA STAY HERE? (SHE'S LEAVING AGAIN FOR ABROAD), I DIDNT ANSWER HER, WAS IT BECAUSE I DONT KNOW THE ANSWER OR IM JUST AFRAID TO TELL HER.....MY ANSWER TO HER QUESTION...IS SIMPLE.....IM HAPPY HERE....WHY? IM NOT YET READY TO REVEAL TO THE WHOLE WORLD WHY IM HAPPY.....IF YOU READ MY OTHER POSTS THEN YOU MIGHT HAVE A HUNCH WHY IM HAPPY HERE

MAYBE FINANCIALLY ILL BE MORE SUCCESSFUL ABROAD, BUT WILL I FIND THAT "HAPPINESS" I FOUND HERE?


O.T.

I'M TRYING TO DECIDE WHETHER ILL KEEP THIS BLOG OR GO BACK TO MY FRIENDSTER BLOG

RELATIONSHIPS!!!!

RELATIONSHIPS? WHY ARE THEY SO COMPLICATED? ITS TRUE WHAT THEY SAY THAT IT TAKES TWO TO TANGO, BOTH OF YOU HAVE TO WORKED HARD ON THE RELATIONSHIP BUT SOMETIMES ONE OF YOU WILL MOST LIKELY WORK HARDER THAN THE OTHER ONE....COZ EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE IT WILL BE TESTED, HOW STRONG IT IS, HOW LONG IT CAN ENDURE SUCH TESTS? I THINK ITS ALSO TRUE ABOUT THE SEVEN YEAR THING, THAT THE MOST PAINFUL TEST WILL COME ON THE SEVENTH YEAR AND IF BOTH OF YOU CAN SURPASSED THAT THEN IT WILL MOSTLY BE SMOOTH SAILING ON THE YEARS TO COME (ITS NOT A FACT, BUT STILL WORTH TO BELIEVE IN). I HAD 3 RELATIONSHIPS IN MY LIFE, AND ALL I CAN SAY 2 OF THEM WAS GOOD TILL THE LAST DROP....BUT THERE MUST ALWAYS BE A CLOSURE IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP, NO HANGING QUESTIONS, SO WHEN THE TIME COMES THAT YOU'LL SEE EACHOTHER THEN THERE WILL NE NO HATRED IN YOU...THATS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, NO CLOSURE COZ I WAS REALLY MAD BACK THEN....ALL I CAN DO IS TO SHOW THAT PERSON THAT I CAN BE HAPPY, WE STARTED AS FRIENDS THEN MAYBE THAT "FRIENDSHIP" IS STILL THERE WHEN DESTINY DO ITS THING AGAIN...
AS FOR NOW, I HAVE NOTHING MORE TO ASK FOR......IM HAPPY

FRIENDSHIP!!

FRIENDSHIP, WHAT IS IT? IS FRIENDSHIP EASILY GAINED? IN MY LIFE I HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS, I HAD FRIENDS DURING MY ELEMENTARY DAYS, HIGH SCHOOL DAYS, MY COLLEGE DAYS, ....BUT ONLY A FEW IS LEFT, THE LAST TIME I COUNTED ONLY 6 WAS LEFT....YOU CAN HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS BUT FEW ONLY WILL BE YOUR TRUE FRIENDS WHO WILL BE THERE ALWAYS...FRIENDSHIP ISNT BASED ON QUANTITY BUT ON QUALITY....YOU' KNOW YOUR TRUE FRIENDS IN TIMES OF TROUBLE...NO MATTER HOW SELDOM YOU SEE EACHOTHER...YOUR TRUE FRIENDS WILL ALWAYS BE THERE..EVEN IF YOU HAVE FAMILIES OF YOUR OWN, TRUE FRIENDSHIP REMAINS...OF ALL MY FRIENDS I TREASURE, ONLY ONE IS THE FRIEND THAT I CANT LOSE....WHO IS ALWAYS THERE......FOR YOU MY FRIEND, THIS IS MY TRIBUTE TO YOU....HOPE YOU COULD READ THIS....YOU DONT NEED TO REPLY....JUST SMILE AT ME....

BE GRATEFUL!!!!

YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL.....WHY? BECAUSE YOUR READING THIS.....IT ONLY MEANS THAT YOURE STILL BREATHING, IT MEANS THAT YOU HAVE THE TIME AND THE MONEY TO LOG IN TO YOUR FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT WHILE SOME PEOPLE CANT EVEN BUY FOOD, CLOTHES ETC.

WE SHOULD ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL EVERYDAY OF OUR LIVES.....WE SHOULD BE GRATEFUL THAT WE HAVE ANOTHER DAY TO LIVE, ANOTHER DAY TO FIX WHAT WE HAVE DONE WRONG YESTERDAY..BE GRATEFUL THAT WE CAN STILL SEE OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS, BE GRATEFUL THAT WE CAN STILL LISTEN TO UR FAVORITE SONGS IN OUR MP3 PLAYERS OR THE RADIO....

JUST BE GRATEFUL!!!!!!